Saturday, August 14, 2010

I'm not running.

Oh my. In 5 days I start yet another year of school. However, it really isn't just another year of school. It is a crazy big year. My senior year. Good grief. Seems like just yesterday I walked in to the AHS gym as a little freshman. I can picture myself sitting there listening to Baier talk about how high school is going to fly by. "Yeah right!!" I remember myself saying as I rolled my eyes. Well...he was exactly right.

This high school gig has been such a rollarcoaster. I'm not even going to get into all of that right now.

So last April/May I started having a few serious talks with my parents about changing schools. I had it all planned out and was certain it would work. I would use my grandparents address...since they live in the Heights district. I was even willing to drive about 20min to school each day. (I would like all of you to know how big of a deal that is. I am NOT a morning person. Seriously.) So anywho...after a few chats with the parentals they said they would talk and get back with me.

A day or so later, my mom and I were talking and she told me that everytime she thought about me switching schools she thought of Jonah. Dang. I couldn't believe it...but yet it kinda made since. A little. All I could think was, WHAT? Me? Jonah? No. Absolutly not. Jonah was a terrible person! God wanted him to tell His people...His broken, desprite people about Him and Jonah was too scared so he ran. The little sissy. Um hello, Jonah! Do you not realise how huge that is?!? God spoke to you and told you to go...and you ran. Lame.
Mmmkay. So back to how I'm like Jonah.
God didn't just drop me at the doors of Andover High for the heck of it. No. He had a reason. To this day I really don't know what that is...but there's a reason. Im sure of it. Do you see the similarities? I was trying to run from the difficulties in my life...just like Jonah did.

Ug. So here I am...5 days away from going back to AHS for my last year. I am not running from my problems. I'm facing them. So bring it, AHS. I'm ready.


  1. As much as I want to see your beautiful face everyday, teach you all the ways of Heights and ACTUALLY attend the same school as you Im glad you are staying at the dover. If that's where God wants you that's where I want you too I suppose :) Even if it is 84 years from now when you find out why God has you there will you call me up and let me know please? :) Or wheel yourself down the hall to my room in the nursing home. paha!

  2. It's so awesome to see you listening to God and following through...I'll be praying for your school year! I love you and I know you will do great :)

  3. Dear Hannah,

    wow. this is an incredible post. your sharing of hurt and real life is such big step in spiritual growth. sometimes, that growth (aka, pruning) is painful and you do want to shrink back from the pain. but I will share with you from experience, you will always remember how God showed up and then, in time, be able to minister to those who come after you and feel the same way.

    Your parents sure do love you Hannah. And what good counsel and insight to share with you from the Word. Look for those qualities in all your relationships!

    I'm so happy for your Senior year! Praying like crazy as you tackle this last go of High school. Remember, Eph 6:10-12 ~ "Be strong in the LORD and in his might power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."
    I love you girl!
    ~Mrs. W~